Dad died when I was 34.
Short battle with cancer. Long battle with alcohol.
Sleeping on the couch next to his hospice bed, he’d groan in pain throughout the night. Other than my presence (and more meds), touch was the only comfort I could offer.
As his death drew closer, he’d get up in the darkness and cover me with a blanket. I’d pretend to be asleep, peeking at him through half-closed eyes.
In those moments, it was evident what was most important to him.
I wish I could thank him for his compassion. Embrace him. Feel his heartbeat against my chest again.
He helped me grasp the razor-sharp clarity that death provides. But also, that this clarity comes with the ultimate price.
After his passing, I set out on a 13-year journey. Toward healing. Light. Authenticity.
And a mindful life where I recognize everyday miracles as they occur—long before I’m covering my own children sleeping next to my deathbed.
Why “Mindfulness Changes Lives?”
Hi, I’m Derek. I’m honored you’re here.
Mindfulness didn’t just transform my life—it saved it.
In 2023, following years of deep depression, I had an intent, a plan, and the means to end my life. Letters to my loved ones were written. I just had one final session with my therapist.
In a hail-Mary effort, she recommended reaching out to a local group of physicians about exploring ketamine therapy.
Through their guidance, I’ve not only found relief from depression, but also remembered my inner light, reshaped my worldview, and—perhaps most importantly—learned mental tools that allow me to remain above the darkness when it inevitably creeps around the periphery of my psyche.
While ketamine was a catalyst, years of practicing mindful techniques allowed me to download, hone, and implement the emotional tools revealed by the molecule. Without the fertile soil of mindfulness already in place, I know I’d be in a much different place today.
Why You?
Now, that’s why I write: To help others mindfully realize the preciousness of their own everyday miracles and live from a place of authenticity, empathy, and compassion.
Not tomorrow. Now.
If you’re interested in maximizing your mental wellness, learning what your emotions can teach you, and living your best life—however you define it—I’d be honored to have you along for the journey, and to help you reach your goals.
