I’m sure it’s an emotional time for you, Derek. Be kind to yourself as you transition into a new space. I’m still feeling unsettled. I’m glad you were able to finish your letter. The fact that you didn’t finish it earlier might suggest that you were processing or letting go of what might have been. I feel that’s part of the grief I’m experiencing — what I thought would have been, is not.
I’m finding I need to settle into a new reality. I’m not where I thought I would be. It can feel so discouraging at times. I can see it. But, I’m not there yet.
It’s nice that you don’t live too far from the kids. It’s hard to say what the future will hold.
Thanks so much, Anna. Your words mean a lot. The move went well, but I'm definitely getting too old to keep moving myself (I think that was my 16th as an adult).
Yes, The Universe was gently nudging me that it wasn't the right time. A great deal of energy was released with this one, and lightness abounds.
I'm sorry you're feeling unsettled and discouraged in your new reality. Those are two feelings I've sat with deeply over the last 18 months, and the most self-compassionate things I did were to release clinging to how I thought things "should" be, and sit inside the discomfort of an unknown future. I owe you a DM. I'll follow up soon.
No worries about DM. I trust you'll reach out when you're ready. I know what you mean by moving as you get older. I pulled out my back a few months ago hauling moving boxes and dollying potted plants around. Well, if we can't say that nothing is ‘moving’ for us as we've both been ‘moving’ and trying to settle in on our own respective terms. I'd like to feel more firmly planted. “Releasing the clinging to how I thought things should be, and sit inside the discomfort of an unknown future” is definitely the life lesson for me as I grieve. I'd like to talk to you about ketamine in this regard. Do you feel it helped with the release? I wish you smooth sailing, my friend. ⛵
I’m sure it’s an emotional time for you, Derek. Be kind to yourself as you transition into a new space. I’m still feeling unsettled. I’m glad you were able to finish your letter. The fact that you didn’t finish it earlier might suggest that you were processing or letting go of what might have been. I feel that’s part of the grief I’m experiencing — what I thought would have been, is not.
I’m finding I need to settle into a new reality. I’m not where I thought I would be. It can feel so discouraging at times. I can see it. But, I’m not there yet.
It’s nice that you don’t live too far from the kids. It’s hard to say what the future will hold.
Good luck with the move.
Thanks so much, Anna. Your words mean a lot. The move went well, but I'm definitely getting too old to keep moving myself (I think that was my 16th as an adult).
Yes, The Universe was gently nudging me that it wasn't the right time. A great deal of energy was released with this one, and lightness abounds.
I'm sorry you're feeling unsettled and discouraged in your new reality. Those are two feelings I've sat with deeply over the last 18 months, and the most self-compassionate things I did were to release clinging to how I thought things "should" be, and sit inside the discomfort of an unknown future. I owe you a DM. I'll follow up soon.
No worries about DM. I trust you'll reach out when you're ready. I know what you mean by moving as you get older. I pulled out my back a few months ago hauling moving boxes and dollying potted plants around. Well, if we can't say that nothing is ‘moving’ for us as we've both been ‘moving’ and trying to settle in on our own respective terms. I'd like to feel more firmly planted. “Releasing the clinging to how I thought things should be, and sit inside the discomfort of an unknown future” is definitely the life lesson for me as I grieve. I'd like to talk to you about ketamine in this regard. Do you feel it helped with the release? I wish you smooth sailing, my friend. ⛵
The love and kindness we show come from our understanding and appreciation for the love others give us.
I very much agree, Deborah! By loving ourselves, we have the opportunity to love others.
Thank you Derek.. I so enjoyed this piece you wrote, it truly resonated with me. I have a personal and true understanding of this position faced.
Beautiful words full of emotion ❤️🩹
Thank you so much, Darcy! 🙏
Thank you deeply for your vulnerability, Stefanie. May we remember that it's always a work in progress, and that healing is rarely linear.